Maybe I am just hitting a low point but yesterday I received some not so happy news. Rob's deployment orders have been extended until January 2nd. I know its only another 31 days but Im devastated. There are still so many questions. How will they be sending them back? How soon? Will he make it home in time for Christmas? Can they extend it again? While Hawaii is BEAUTIFUL, this place is not home. Atleast not with Rob gone. Seriously Hawaii is a beautiful place with views and beaches that don't compare to anything I have EVER seen but this is not home. I go through each day just wishing it to be over. Michael has grown up so much since Rob has left. AJ has been more difficult now than ever before. Im surrounded by Navy wives that the longest deployment they will experience at any given time is 6 months. Most dont' go out to sea for more that 4. Rob's deployment has tripled that. I've met some nice people but none in the same boat. I have not had one break away from the kids since Rob left for deployment on December 1st. Actually I lied. When Rob came home for R&R I got my hair done one day and we went to dinner for Mother's Day.
So here I am in Hawaii all alone with the two boys. I try and stay busy. Taking them to the beach, the pool and maybe an activity or two. But at the end of the day its just me. I watch TV alone, I clean alone I take care of the boys alone, I sleep alone and pretty much everything else is just alone as well. I didnt realize how hard this would be. No wonder most of the Army wives are really fat. Food is a great comfort. Speaking of which I have no desire to work out or anything anymore. Maybe once it gets closer or when AJ starts school I will feel differently.
I know they say deployment money is good but its def not worth the time spent away from my husband. Looks like I have 5 more months of this. Jeez someone wake me up when this is over
